I'm sorry you are struggling right now. You have a great deal on your platter (because let's face it-a plate is not enough in these circumstances). Just my 2 cents...
People say what they say. I understand feeling like your boss's comments are directed towards you. However, the reality is that it's a broad generalization she believes. I know this may be difficult, but the reality is that sometimes we need to be our own biggest cheerleader. Complete with pom poms, liberty heel stretches, and a dance routine.
Mini hijack alert. A few years back, I went to work for a very, very sexy start up company. Big names associated with said company. Big names backed said company. I wanted this gig very badly. All of upper management graduated from Harvard, Yale or Princeton. Oh and one Stanford. They interviewed over 60 people for the position I wanted and had some very specific thoughts in mind with what this individual would be like. Many media appearances and a face in the community. I wondered what shot I had because even though I know that extremely intelligent (even though I hide it on this board), I went to a state school because I paid for it myself. And then I partied nonstop and certainly don't have the GPA that demonstrates commitment to academics:) However, I got the gig. And I got feedback from the upper echelon at the company, that no ONE compared to me during the interview process. I still felt less than sometimes with them, but I realized that *I* had to buy into me. I couldn't place that burden on anyone else.
Maybell is a smart lady and a great mom. Keep reminding yourself that you can do this. I know it's difficult, however, for your own benefit, you need to stop giving your STBX so much power. He made his decisions and he will have to live with them. Just like you will have to live with the decisions you make. It's a new chapter for you and it can be so exciting and wonderful:)
Please know that it will all fall into place in due time. We are all cheering for you.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
