Rebuilding my castle...foundation is halfway...

[LoisB]

Many of us, I've noticed, have relied heavily on our faith and maybe even developed strong faith in God where there once was none.

In fact, I feel different sometimes from the people around me. I don't know how to express this without it sounding elitist.

My sister, for instance, we just don't speak the same language anymore. I feel pressure to find God's Will for me and carry that out daily. And, it's because of a need. The pain and loss I've experienced has forced me to reach out to God on a different level. Does that make sense?

It's not that I begrudge my sister in how she chooses to live her life, but I feel driven to push myself further because of this experience. I'm different.

So, my question for the day is, brothers and sisters of faith, how do we know we are on the path that God has chosen for us?

I'm beginning to see that God doesn't worry so much about the discomfort we experience. IN FACT, I think HE sometimes forces us to experience great pain so we will learn and become bigger testimonies to His Way. Much like childbirth, we have to stretch and feel uncomfortable for a bit...maybe even learn to live with the discomfort for some years...in order to reach a greater level of understanding.

But, how do you know if you are on the right path? Since I've been wondering about this. Am I supposed to go "all in" with this little newspaper and learn how to properly manage my time and create something to be really proud of, before moving on? Am I supposed to be accepting of a period of transition right now?

I know the areas where I'm lacking...organization, prioritizing, money management, getting my needs met in person/as opposed to over the Internet, building some GAL into my daily life, etc...

Is this my path for now? Am I supposed to stop worrying and trying to find THE place for us, instead of just accepting my situation for right now and putting things in order while I'm here...

I think I just answered my own question.

That little voice in my waivers sometimes and I get confused.

I spent so much time trying to Bloom Where I'm Planted. In fact, I used to have that picture hanging in our family room...I don't want to repeat that situation. I know life is short now. But, maybe, I'm supposed to learn what I need to learn HERE, then move on...IDK.