I am not so angry and I am so sorry that comes across in my posts. Yes, I am frustrated and bewildered.
I care about this more than anything. To do all you need to do with detachment and to have that so that the D itself is done for you in a place where the outcome is letting go. Frustration is a combination of anger and sadness. They are feelings and they need not define you. Bewilderment is an action, a choice when another behaves in conflicting ways or when feelings oscillate. There is no need to apologise for feelings, not ever, they are yours and valid. None can define your feelings for you and often what we state are feelings are really beliefs or thoughts that we can control.
I think I mentioned that I felt like a dog being jerked around on a chain.
Yes my lovely I know and read it in your posts that is why I urge you to let go. Letting go and detachment mean letting go of the outcome. It doesn't mean letting go of your desire to stand for your M. To me it means that you can do what is needed because it is needed, not just because of what it achieves.
To let WW jerk you around on a chain is holding on to the outcome. If you can let go to unleash your collar, which is your choice to do, then WW can't jerk you around. You can sit in the observer position.
All of this is beyond belief, but I would take my W back if she would only give up her AP which she won't. She knows I want it because I have told her so and there is nothing else I can do.
You can detatch and let go.
She told me earlier than she wanted someone to fight for her, and our marriage, I did that, and now there is no one left to fight...
You can stand for you and your M. In peace without fighting or struggling if you detach and let go
I can't force someone to love me who has clearly stated so many times now that I can't even count - I AM DIVORCING YOU. I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE - I AM IN ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP. GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD.
100% remember, Sandi guideline.
I have instructed my L to not be hasty in this process but it has been 9 months now. We have to agree before it is signed off on and then it's 6 months in the system.
Absolutely, you have time to use.
So, it will be well over a year before it actually signed and presented I am guessing.
Yes, and many things can happen in that time, more so if you let go and detach. Even APs do a runner in that time, things change quickly, sitches change when DB is used
Dear heart I care very much when I see you in so much pain like this and I would like you to have as much time as possible, to see those emotions not drive you. For space peace and above all to remove that awful jerky collar and chain. And still stand.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
