STBX has D7 for slightly longer stretches in the summer- so I'm trying to work some longer hours to build up some goodwill for when school starts again. She had a swim meet this weekend and shaved 5 seconds off of her freestyle time - Woohoo!. While I'm not the most social person, I do enjoy the vibe at these meets. Everyone puts up tents and sort of camp out for the day and the parents all seem like a pretty good crew.
Am also busy trying to open a side business, my goal is to be up and running with an official first day of business on the anniversary of BD (that will give me a better association on that date). It's California - so even opening a small, sole proprietor business is a pain in the a** that requires a lot of forms to be filed to the appropriate entities.
Still feeling sort of a numb ambivalence towards STBX. When he had the girls last week it was apparently constant FUN time- and it sounds like that will be his MO for the summer. I was a little surprised that they actually seem to be appreciating the quieter time with me more than they used to.
I was talking sports with one of my male co-workers today by the water cooler. We chat a lot. He's a beautifully made man. Taller than me, tapered waist, not afraid to wear color, smart, funny, apparently available and when I talk to him I feel........nothing, zip, nada (except appreciation for his knowledge of the finer points of fantasy football). I wonder if that part of me will ever come to life again.
