Feeling unsure over what is going to happen next - I have never done this before. I review the letter today from my L and he will send it out tonight. He has sheduled a date at court. I am truly hoping that we can settle the major items before we have a court date.
Once my W reads this - of course she will be furious as she told me to wait 6 months or so so she can save up money for her attorney. Oh well, there is nothing I can do about this. As I stated the other day to W, you filed for divorce from me remember?
I didn't not tell her what my plans are keep the attorney or return to mediation. We left it kind of up in the air. She has already told me she has no money for an attorney and wants me to wait for 6 months so she can save up enough money to hire one.
I am going to STFU on all D talk, between her and my L. She was gleeful almost yesterday telling me - I am divorcing you, I am divorcing you, get it through your head. I am in a new relationship now. I said "I hear you." She has been saying this for months and months. I finally said "Yes, I get it, I hear you."
I don't get why she has to be so freaking mean about the whole thing. The lies, on top of the lies, why does she still feel the need to still lie about it. It's over (almost).
One more night until kids arrive - house is prepped and I have been working on finances and spreadsheet so I am prepared for L. I don't know how this will turn out in the end, but I think I have the strength now and clarity to go through with this process. This DB Board has been so helpful and have gotten me through some of worst moments of my life. Really.
Fingers crossed that I can withstand this. Once again, I did not ask for this or want this, but this is reality.
I wonder if WAW will ever think back and realiaze what she has thrown away? Probably not but again, cheeseless tunnels.
