Stay the course - that will only lead us down one path. I guess that is my only option at this point. I honestly can't take any more of this pain. She has admitted it is painful and she is exhausted but determined to be free. I have granted her the freedom to fly away little bird although she always had the freedom. It was never something I controlled nor did she.
I won't talk anymore to her as it is counerproductive. We have the summer blocked out on the calendar so I have no reason to talk to her. I was really trying to get us into counseling but she is not having ANY PART of it. I don't see how we will ever be able to talk to one another again if we don't get any counseling. She is just so resolute in her decision and so entrenched in A.
I guess I keep up the cordial and polite exchanges at pick up and drop off and let it be. I will try to be as graceful as I can in this process.
I do not want it to be vindictive nor punative. It will be what it will be, a legal process only. It's so strange how fast life changes, instantly, on a dime.
I will stop saying that I will not play happy family. That is only a set up for another fight so I just won't say anything at all. Who knows what it will be in a year.
I said this morning you know you are right, it's best that we divorce. wished her good luck and walked out.
