Alpha Step At A Time #5

[alpha99]

Hi all,

Thanks for your comments above.

I realise it's been a while since I last posted so I thought I'd stop by and give an update.

At the moment life is going about as well as it could be! On the whole things seem to have settled down sitch wise. There is no positive change, nor do I think there will ever be, in terms of us getting back together - in fact I'm 99.9% sure that that's not what I want. I think only nostalgia and thoughts of the children and their upbringing would bring to mind any such idea. When the children are with me it is like nothing has changed - they are fantastic children and I make sure I put a huge effort in to do nice things with them and spend quality time with them.

When I think of myself and my sitch, I don't miss W at all. I'm not sat around waiting thinking of her or waiting for a call or text. In fact, when I see her it feels more like a burden having to put up with her to be honest. I think she is living the kind of life she wants to live these days, not compatible with mine it would seem. I have a feeling she is struggling to deal with her new found financial responsibilities. Anyway, having said all that when I do have to speak to her regarding the children etc we have been getting along largely OK. No arguments, fighting, or threats from her in a little while.

GAL activities have gone into overdrive. A few months back I was only going out once a month. Now, I am out up to 5 times a week doing various general social activities. I have made new friends and feel that socially I am in the best place I have ever been in.

I have been dating. In the last 6 weeks or so I've had a few dates with a few different women. I am always upfront about my sitch, having children, and everything else. The last few dates have gone well and may go somewhere. I don't feel bad or guilty as I thought I may before any of this started. It's not a case of reframing things to justify them, it's just that I think I was holding out some small hope that things might work out well sitch wise. They are clearly not going to. We'll see what happens on the dating score anyway.

Work is going better than it ever has. I am able to save a little money now and do more things now that I'm working properly once more.