Hey Mozza....wow you have had a lot going on! I'm glad that your dating is helping to ease the sting of seeing your STBX at mediation. It's always hard when you have children. There is no complete escape. It sounds like you are feeling better about your self as a man though and that's great.
I read what you wrote about cheating in the DNA. I think that some people are more prone to cheating due to issues within themselves. Character flaws or immature emotionally. I also agree with what Lisa said about what you saw growing up and how it can influence your sense of right and wrong.
It's funny that you knew that I would feel something with my STBX again. I honestly know I will be ok no matter what but I felt the strangest strongest pull. It makes me wonder if he has had that happen too. Now that his last fling moved across country and didn't seem to be too concerned about leaving him behind.
I've taken a break from the online thing. I'm just keeping busy and enjoying being me right now. I am going to Mexico next month with my D and SD. Then my Son is coming from the UK for two weeks with his GF. Then I am flying to the UK in Sept and my Son and I will be going on a side trip to the French Rivera....so lots to look forward to. DB all the way! Hahaha
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.