hold on! - 10

[u-turn]

I took a trip to see my parents yesterday - out of the blue, just went and had a good talk. This is not normal for me, but it was nice. I haven't seen them in a while.

It was not may intention to do so, but with the right questions from my mom, I told them about the troubles we are having. My mom was not surprised one bit - not at all. She knew all along, even last year - how about how things have been for me. We did not speak of the why, but she made some very spot-on assumptions. It is also funny that she pointed out many things about how my marriage and W has been (some things that stung a little) nothing too cruel, but maybe things that I never saw before.

My dad was oblivious and shocked and angry. I had to calm him a little.

I regret opening up to them a little, but it did make me feel like I had family again. They offered their support of anything I need. That felt nice.

They spoke about my brother who went through a eerily similar situation a couple years ago and is now re-fighting with his xw about finances and custody with a new lawyer. (He can barely afford to live while his xw is remarried to her AP built a new giant house and is living the life - but yet she is demanding more money from him (that is the story that I understand anyway))

I think at some point I will talk with him too. I don't know if I am ready for that though. I have never really been very open with him. Funny thing is my W was the talker when we were with my family too.

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I have declined more invitations to do things with W and the kids. I see the kids all week long and I don't feel like I am missing out on them (I really miss family time though)(I just feel that it is not right at this time). This makes me really angry.

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How about this - I keep getting a message that OMW is a "person I should know" on facebook. I believe we are in close circles with some of our common friends (and some of my former clients). This is going to be a constant reminder for me. I still feel really bad for her (this is something that I think about a lot - something that torments me - (I don't believe she knows about any of this)). I looked at her profile and saw pictures of her and her H celebrating their anniversary with their kids.