Well, if our convo last Thursday had not occurred... yes, I would definitely be suspicious of his niceness. Now that I know for sure he doesn't want the D and I've told him that I won't ask him to grovel, he's seemingly much happier at the thought of working on reconciling.
Of course, I'm still waiting to hear those words, but I'm fairly certain he's thinking, from the perspective of how he's going to have to work when he says those words to me.
Believe it or not, before his MLC, Mr. Wonderful WAS nice. In fact, the nice guy who's showing up lately is the guy who I married. It's nice to see his presence again.
Though I will remain cautious for the indefinite future (because I have no doubt that the alien is still lurking under the surface), I am choosing to see him coming out of his MLC fog.
I need to call him shortly about weekend plans, so I'll keep you posted.
I'll pray that he gives you more to work with so it's easier to live in the NOW. It's tough, Holding, it really is. Having the Step 3 talk last week is the big difference for me right now. I was prepared to hear that he wanted the D and willing to agree to get off the roller coaster. He surprised me by telling me he didn't even remember why he thought moving out was the only solution to our problems....
Just keep swimming!
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
