Thanks Vanilla, Skydive and RD for posting. I really appreciate it.
V you are so right, I can't change anything, all what I can do is be best I can for myself and my kids. Sometimes, I feel like I am afraid to detach, let go... like if I brake that little, thin line then I will not love him anymore.
I know, you will probably say that now is Pink that is going nuts, but I feel that way sometimes, I am afraid I won't love him anymore. I wonder if this is some kind of side effect from some chicken virus.
S - Yes I am strong, I just don't want to be all the time. It's hard that you are always the strong one in the story. But I think it is my personality, I can't be sad for too long, I have a lot of life inside of me.
RD, my sweet RD, I have been busy but I always thinking about you. You are the intriguing question in my head. Sometimes I miss you, reading our nice conversation about the devilish time we both had in our past. Never shared that with anyone in my life, everybody is different then me.
Seems like I need to talk to the sweet Irish so far away. Wish I could share time and a beer with you today. You are so darling to me.
Ah by the way, almost forgot why I am in this board. Because of my annoying H. I did answer his text like this:
"Glad you dad is doing well. S15 left for camp Wednesday morning. Sunday will be a better day if the boys want to do something."
That's it and it is already a lot. C ya H.
To make sure I won't back slide again, I will leave the house every time, before or right when he shows up.
I AM LETTING GO...FLY, GO AWAY H AND LEAVE ME WITH MY LIFE... IF YOU DON'T WANT ME ANYMORE, THEN SET ME FREE AS WELL.
I always said that I am like Scarlett O'Hara from Gone with the wind. And now, I feel even more like her. Every time H comes around I will just think that I can resolve it tomorrow.
Love you all...Have a wonderful weekend. Nothing much to do this weekend since there is a chance of more Tornadoes touch down in Colorado. And Saturday, the appraiser will be at my house by 11am.
Thanks Vanilla, Skydive and RD for posting. I really appreciate it.
V you are so right, I can't change anything, all what I can do is be best I can for myself and my kids. Sometimes, I feel like I am afraid to detach, let go... like if I brake that little, thin line then I will not love him anymore.
I know, you will probably say that now is Pink that is going nuts, but I feel that way sometimes, I am afraid I won't love him anymore. I wonder if this is some kind of side effect from some chicken virus.
S - Yes I am strong, I just don't want to be all the time. It's hard that you are always the strong one in the story. But I think it is my personality, I can't be sad for too long, I have a lot of life inside of me.
RD, my sweet RD, I have been busy but I always thinking about you. You are the intriguing question in my head. Sometimes I miss you, reading our nice conversation about the devilish time we both had in our past. Never shared that with anyone in my life, everybody is different then me.
Seems like I need to talk to the sweet Irish so far away. Wish I could share time and a beer with you today. You are so darling to me.
Ah by the way, almost forgot why I am in this board. Because of my annoying H. I did answer his text like this:
"Glad you dad is doing well. S15 left for camp Wednesday morning. Sunday will be a better day if the boys want to do something.
