Started clearing a storage cupboard and throwing away boxes from things long gone. I found 4 storage boxes of H, I did not know they were there. Things of his deceased wife. Diaries, old paperwork, her will and other stuff.
I do what I always do, remove my glasses so I am not tempted to pry. My heart was full of sadness for a woman I have never known. a woman who fought battle with cancer and lost. A difficult thought crossed my mind if this DW had the same stresses I have had.
I know she cancelled her life policies when she had cancer, which I thought very strange. You can never get cover if you have had cancer and the mortgage on their house wouldn't be paid off, leaving H homeless. Was it because she wanted H to wake up to hit rock bottom? To stop him gambling? and yes she went to GAManon the booklet was there to pack.
I did not pry, I respected her privacy but I recognise the GAManon logo.
I cried at the destruction and I feel very 'out of body'.
This has phased me as I always thought she had never known that H was a compulsive gambler who had gambled away their home by remortgaging and was heavily in debt. Now I have no illusions- DW did know.
My heart feels so heavy.
V
Last edited by Vanilla; 06/05/1510:43 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
