Why can't I just be a man and move on, at least for now. Why is it we try so hard after such a long failing attempt. All this time we had to be ourselves, to learn the things we needed to have, and yet, here we are. Lost in the middle of the one if the hardest decisions there is to make. And then to top it off, we lose every ounce of patients we have. We want everything right now, can't wait for it. No one knows the future, but it is entirely possible to shape it in our own desires.