Day two of detachment going ok. Does feel awkward as it is the opposite of instinct and easy to worry that I am making things worse. H is home working today, but doing best to avoid me. Getting silent treatment, minimal eye contact, and overall I will show you attitude. I am sure I will get better at this, but I am staying calm. I just need to get better with balancing with projecting light and happy.
Oh, and he went tanning?! I know part of the issue that my H needs to deal with is self worth/ esteem issues. Makes sense with A. He even said he felt broken in our M and that this OWA made/makes him feel not broken. Of course only temporarily while it is happening, but he is not going to admit to that. I do have a lot of empathy and compassion for H and it makes me said that he feels that way about himself and that I contributed to this with some of my behavior. I know that primarily that comes from within and is his responsibility.
Back to detaching....
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
