All I Wanna Do Is..Get A Little Closer #12

[Georgiabelle]

Did you guys miss me? Ready for me to say I met a hot, funny, loyal millionaire? Maybe that will be a post one day....not today. I have read a bit lately but I have to be honest in that I'm not totally on board with how the mobile site looks on my phone. It's been an adjustment with navigation and you know what? I will get used to it.

My goodness I am totally sassy today in my Michael Kors stiletto sandals:). I hate anything ostentatious, however there can be exceptions. Seriously. Big kids are at Adventure Camp (D10 was very concerned about the temperature while S12 wondered if there would be bear wrestling.) and I had to go out of town for work for a couple of days this week. Last night it was just me, the cat, and the hamsters. We are quite a group. I have missed S5 sooooo (and my big fur baby) much and cannot wait to snuggle on him tonight. Kisses for my dog too.

What's happening here? Pool open. Kids and I have been enjoying it. GAL? I'm not the best GALer but I have been getting together with friends and I have surprisingly really enjoyed it. Lots of laughs. Been working out. I'm ashamed to say I have discovered Ben & Jerry's "Tonight Dough." This was a fabulous creation for people looking to gain weight. Sadly, this is not a problem I have.

X Mr. GB watched S5 while I was gone.X Mr. GB is rocking a new look. His hair is one length and he frequently wears funny baseball caps. The last one had a bear on it. A friend of mine said he looked exactly like the guy that delivered his pizza. He had on a new Avengers shirt the last time I saw him. I know you smiled at that, Wonka.

I find that with time, my feelings have evolved. While occasional bouts of sadness pop up, I just find that I think of X Mr. GB as kind of a stranger. He makes attempts to engage and sometimes we have some witty banter. However, ultimately, I feel rather apathetic about him at this juncture. I don't know. I'm sure it is an ongoing process and that will change. Right now, it is rather difficult to believe I was married to him. Oh, I know I was. Just seems very.....foreign.

I do believe the universe is trying to tell me something. If you recall (and you probably don't because I can prattle on endlessly) , a few months back, a friend of mine told me he adopted the son of a woman he was married to for 2 years. She cheated on him and as part of the settlement, he told her he wanted to formally adopt her son and pay all educational expenses for him-including college. Then, a few months later, I met a man in his early 50s. Never married with no children. He told me the story of how he met a divorced woman in her 40s with 4 kids. He spoke glowingly of her (she was quite lovely) and said he knew he wanted to be with her. Signed up for parenting classes because he wanted to be a good step dad. Felt like the universe was trying to tell me that there are many good men out there. I know this. I have loads of male friends but the universe showed me something I really needed to see.

I have a client...He is actually the best looking man I've ever seen in person. He is also a fitness model. (FTR, I love men. I just do. Always have. Funny wins me over because I'm rarely attracted to someone..but when I think someone is cute...SWOON!!!!!)Hilarious guy. Very polite. Smart. Talented. Loves his kids. Actually had primary custody for a few years and recently worked out a different agreement with the mother. Honestly, even my guy friends say he is the best looking man they have ever seen. I would need to wear a bib to catch my drool if I saw him frequently.

Anyway, I was in his town this week and he asked if I wanted to hang out. He asked if he could bring his "better half" and I said, "absolutely!" I want to be honest. I was expecting a willowy, beauty and please know that I don't think looks mean much. This was just my, um, expectation (yes, THOSE expectations). In walks a woman 3 inches shorter than me and about 30 lbs heavier. My jaw almost dropped. She was pleasant enough to me but was rather condescending with him. Whatevs. His deal. They have only been together a couple of months.

I hope this doesn't make me seem vapid or shallow, but I needed to see that. I always thought this guy was "out of my league" (that term cracks me up) and I needed to see that everyone has a different concept of beautiful, desirable, etc. We had fun. Please know, I'm not pursuing anything with him (he's very into her and it's freaking adorable). However, I know the universe was again, trying to show me something if that makes sense.

For those of you new to this, please know it gets better. You have one life. Gots to live it, baby. I'm doing well (I think:) and grateful for all that I have.

Positive energy to you all. xo