I know i have a lot of posts . Thank you for reading and commenting. Yes - all a bunch of BS but what can we do but slog through it.
I am trying very very hard to detach, not take the bait, recognize potholes and to remember that this has nothing to do with me ( or you). We all have to deal with the cards that have been dealt with period. Call if faith, fate, karma whatever.
It's taken me a while to stop with the "why" questions and now it's GAL for me, for my kids. I view my w and other WW as wounded and hope they make it through their choices too. I've gone through it all , anger, shock, fear, panic, etc... I am human and have feelings.
My sitch reminds me of addicts who are mad at their families for their negative reactions to their behaviors, does that make sense? They feel entitled to do drugs sleep on their Moms couch when they are 45 and get mad when their families say enough and "what are you so upset about?. They simply can't get that their behaviors caused the reactions , on their minds it's reversed. Your reactions caused my behaviors. So that's a screwy dynamic.
I hope me process goes as smoothly as possible and I can come out with pride integrity and compassion. We"ll see and I will keep posting.
