if it's too late why is he still here?

[lost18]

You're right Mahhhty, it probably isn't much of a 180 and no I don't want to live like this at all anymore. With that being said I think it's the best option for me right now. I'm leaving in a month to go North, 2-3 weeks later he will be there as well.

I'm not even sure I'm doing this whole LRT right, maybe I'm being too cold. This morning he asked me about D13's Ipad (The girls have been looking for it for 2 days and can't find it, I was the last one to have it). I was probably snappy with him in my reply. "I'm aware, it has to be in the house somewhere."

Anyway, I got home from work tonight, he left shortly after without saying anything to anybody. (taste of my own medicine, although I almost always tell the girls when I'm leaving.) D13 eventually called him and he is at his sisters. The only people that I know of that know he told me he wanted a D. Of course now I'm wondering if he is asking her to take him to his surgery and maybe even making plans to find a place to live. Who knows...I'm getting sick of wondering what is next, so in that regard I wish I was ready to set the boundary of him leaving...but I'm not, and the financial aspect of it is a big part.

I keep reading success stories and advice from the boards and also listening to podcasts and reading other books, I wonder if I should just stop because I really don't see any chance at all for him to ever want to work on our M again. Maybe doing all of that is just continuing to give me false hope when really I just need to let go and move on. *sigh*