So now upon reflection - I should not have put money in her car meter yesterday at the D6 ceremony at school. I should have just ignored the request.
She also texted me and said she had a seat by the aisle - where she was sitting. I of course like an idiot sat there - beside her. I should not have done that either. Why do I keep falling for her displays of power over me? Obviously still not mastered the art of detaching. Such a hard process for me.
Urgh..... two mistakes in one day. Maybe that is why she was so nasty - to punish me for being her sap, doing her bidding. In hindsight, I should not have sat there not should I have filled up her parking meter. She fired me, I have to pinch myelf to remind myself of that more often. I don't have to be mean about it, just be detached. It's not my business.
Both of those encounters made me feel like I was still the W sitting by her and ensuring she did not get a ticket (fix it on my part). So hard to break patterns of 20 years.
OK - work on it. Pick myself up and do better next encounter.
