Wife having emotional affair 6

[3kids]

Just wanted to put down some feelings.

Things lately have been going great. Kids, life, and just about everything. Have a date planed for this weekend with a very beautiful women. Nervous and exicited. Have just excepted everything for what it is and finally moving on. The kids love living so close to mom and dad's house. Im very happy for them, anything to make their life better is great. First court date set for Wendsday.

I've been kind of pushing the court. Since me and the stbxw don't talk that much anymore and I don't offer my help in any way(as husband or mr.fixit). I try to bring up the court paper work every now and then. Finally today I got an answer from her on when we can sit down and fill them out. It was a sad text convo. At one point I had to admit I was wrong about something and she stated "I wish you would have done that years ago". I told her that I was sorry I ever hurt her and if I had to do it all over again there would be a lot I would to differently. She texted back "I feel the same, I wish I could go back in time. I wish I was the person I am now." I text back that I feel the same and tough lessons in life.

So after that convo I'm a little sad. I know this my future with her but I'm not mad anymore. I'm a little sad that both of our faults brought us to this point. Sad for my kids to have two seperate homes. But know that both of us love them. And hope that both of us can find a partner in life that loves them as much as we do. Yes, I don't think her and OM will last. But I also know that I diserve someone that looks forward to seeing me every day. And for some reason I don't think that will ever be her.

So today I'm a little sad because the old life that I new is finally coming to a close.

With love
3kids