Okay had a bit of back slide today. We texted a bit. I did bring up a few things, but mainly about where I am. She did say she was just worried about making it the next ten weeks, finishing school. She is getting a masters in nursing, 3 days a week of clinical and 2 days a week in work, plus on call most weekends. I have to at least make it ten weeks of leaving her alone to let her do her work. I just don't know how I can do it, but I am willing to make a serious effort. She also said she is okay with where things are. My PMA, is telling me maybe I still have a chance here, slim to none, but I believe it's their.
Now I need to get what I want done. I have my MRI for back in a few days. I'm doing very well on porn addiction. I'm want to quit my chewing tobacco habit, and get some cavities on my teeth filled. I have to come up with money for the teeth thing though, I have been researching and it might be costly with my terrible dental plan. I need to make an appointment somewhere though and see exactly how much it will cost. I have been trying so hard to stay positive. I'm actually excited to find a new place to live, wanting to take care of myself. Maybe even do a couple of projects. If I get the place I looked at, won't know till tomorrow, I can out in a temp fence for the dogs. Clean up the place a little and get it taken off rent. I can be very handy if I need to be, and I am happy doing that. Just need to make it at least ten weeks. Not bother her, upset her, or add anything to her plate. I can do this. At least with a little help.
