I keep having the same thought that "if only I..." (did things a different way, showed him this other side of me, apologized for the ways I hurt him rather than focus on all the ways he hurt me, etc)
But that is so classic of my old dysfunction --
I want a healthy relationship. I guess in many ways I would love for it to be with my ex, but historically that's just not proven to work. I just don't know if I should try again.
