BW, sorry I haven't been on your forums to respond, just read through your threads and I'm so sorry about your current sitch. Totally understand what you mean about self reflection, my H is also lacking this process at this stage. Your self reflection will make you a stronger and more beautiful person inside and out.
Hugs to you BW.
Me: 39 yrs H:45 yrs M:14 years T:18 years D:10 D:6 BD: 13/04/15 S: in progress