Just Fishin'

[mahhhty]

Thanks Lost. I guess a little late. My motivation is for the kids. Her responses always push my buttons, they seem always self-serving.

Nothing about this is fair. There are still parts of me, that come out in times of weakness, which wants to tell her all the things I have stockpiled. And most come from the idea that I'm used to understanding whats going on and when I don't understand something I am usually able to learn or get questions answered, but in this questions remain. Which I know will remain until the day that she wants to talk to me, not me wanting to talk to her.

I have no idea what enables her from day to day, or what fuels her thinking. I have seen her a handful of times in 2015, which is approaching the mid point. From what I see it isn't good, shallow conversation, dodging any coparenting, averting any conversations or tasks, and physically I've noticed she only ever has her hair up. She used to always wear it down, and only up when she runs. I think thats interesting.

Anyway Thanks Lost. She hasn't written back. Who knows what she'll say next.