Pay close track of how much you focus on her, and how much you focus on you. It should be mostly you right now.
You mentioned writing out some goals, but I haven't seen them. Your last post you say your biggest thing is how dark to become.
Look- if I told you nothing you did or said would ever change your W, your M was DOOMED, and you would never get her back...would 'how dark to be' still be your biggest thing? Or would you be like 'that [censored], looks like my biggest thing is making myself the best person I can be to have the brightest future on my own I can'?
See the difference? Focus on you. For real.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
