I think you're missing my point Vapo. I'm not lying to anyone, especially myself.

For me, there's a difference between spending time with several people, sharing common interests and having sex or getting physical with them. I'm not ready for that and not doing that.

I do admit that the more I or anyone interacts with other, the closer it CAN get towards that, but doesn't have to.

I'm not trying to defend getting physical with someone, just being able to have going to a movie with someone or sporting event or even dinner be a GAL activity.

I also realize I am responsible for my happiness. However, anybody's (including me) self esteem goes up when they realize there are other people taken an interest in them.

THAT boost also helps in my interactions with ww to have a more positive and upbeat attitude around them. Everyone talks about going dark being that you should be busy/mysterious and essentially have them wonder if you've moved on.

Again, while I'm not advocating relationships or sex, why couldn't these interactions be useful in helping me with PMA, detaching and being upbeat around ww?


M-33
W-33
S-11, S-8
M-11, T-14
BD - 12/26, Divorce Filing and admits to affair (her) 4/18
I moved out 5/23