It's good you don't act on that urge to beg. We all have those moments where we are willing to do anything to get them back. Even when they are in an A, we just want them.

You just have to root in your mind begging doesn't work and will actually get you further away from your goal. Patience and strength on your part is the best thing you can do, it's just hard keeping it up.

Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be