So this morning I get triggered feeling like while I'm gal and doing ok, it feels like she could care less because no matter how dark I go, she's darker.
Three things:
1) I want to echo Vapo: you have to stop looking at what W is doing.
2) Don't compare your insides to W's outside. You don't know what she is feeling or why she is doing what she is doing. You are still mind-reading. (as you know I am no expert, but...) To effectively detach you will have to stop worrying about what your W is doing and move on. "it feels like she could care less" - To that I would say: you don't know if she cares, and you shouldn't care if she cares. DETACH.
3) I trigger a ton. I think that is normal. What has changed is how I respond when I trigger. I look back at some of my journal entries and see how reactive I was. Pretty scary!
