Advice Welcome, separating and W moving out soon..

[jedi]

Fogg, Z, RG, thanks for checking in. I have been reading almost every post on every active thread over the last few days and trying to continually absorb all of the advice being given out to others, but not posting at all. I don't think I'm ready to weigh in on anyone else's situation yet and for me personally, there's really nothing new to report.

Had a busy, full weekend, and while it was enjoyable, I'm feeling melancholy this evening.

I had my first IC session on Friday. Overall a lot of getting orientated on my situation and feelings, but it was suggested that I start a journal and also a dobson type letter. I plan to start on these this week.

I also need to write out, once and for all, what my short and long term goals are for myself so I can start measuring progress against said goals.

I am in the middle of reading Mindset right now and it's also hitting home with me with regards to my overall view of myself and life. I have a lot of ME work cut out, but in a way it's exciting.

I think the latent items that need swapped between W and I are growing very thin at this point. We have plans this week to meet for dinner and make the swap, and at that point I think materialistically we will be fully split.

Once that has been done I think "dark" may take on an entirely new meaning for me. I looked back through text and emails today and realized the longest period of NC I've had at this point is 3 days. 72 measly hours that felt like eternity. I can only imagine what it's going to be like as that grows into weeks.

See, that above is my fixed, scared mindset talking. I realized this as soon as a typed it, so at least I'm starting to be cognizant of these things. I need to work on changing my mindset / view so that my thoughts are not "how am I going to deal with this?", but "how am I going to work to overcome this?".