It is good that you are not denying your pain. You have to grieve to be able to move forward. I feel so terribly bad for you, but I know you will make it. I agree with Wonka, it is impossible to forget.
But, at some point, for your own sake, you will have to learn how to forgive him, even though he doesn't deserve it. You are not anywhere near that point now, I know.
Why do I suggest this? I've learned forgiveness offers many benefits to us from a woman who held a free seminar about it. I wish I remembered her name.
4 Benefits of Forgiveness:
1. It sets you free from the past - from hurt, frustration, and fear - and from miserable experiences of many kinds.
2. It significantly reduces the total amount of anger you will experience in your life, because no painful event is allowed to contribute.
3. It allows your mind - conscious and unconscious - to focus on the present, and that leads to more effective and rewarding living.
4. It sets a relationship with another person free to grow and develop.
I hope you, and others, find this helpful.
I'll keep you in my prayers!
*Hugs*
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15
