I think it takes being able to let go of what we think we can control. I'm trying to put myself in her shoes. What would I feel like if I were her. We just have to know that we can't control the spouses feelings, and we can barely control our own right now. But still it's never really giving up you can't be happy, it's just being patient to see if the spouse can think the same way. Keep up the work though, got to remember we will be better after all of this, if we choose to be.