We are over, now what?

[Tulo]

Hi Tulo -

If my wife offered herself to me physically right now, I don't know how I'd be able to say no. I don't put you at fault for any of it.

Try to get some sleep. You'll have better clarity in the...morning.

Thank you so much for the reply..

Well, I've only got 2 hours sleep but will try to get an hour or so more.. I'm so low but know I need to get through this. I think it's so difficult because I miss being close to him so badly.

I'm starting to question all my beliefs I've had of him, that he really is a good guy, when I start thinking about if he's already out and being open to a new R.
I would never (normally) think he would do that and be intimate with me at the same time.. But have I been so wrong the entire time? None of my friends think that have meet him thinks so, could it just be all in my head?

Thanks again, got to try to sleep some more..
Hugs!