I get that, Matt. Before she left for her BBQ today, I was sitting in the corner chair of the living room, reading. She came over, the silly hug and kiss and wanted to talk and all that jazz. This was where I said she was delusional if she thought I would be okay with her going to see her girlfriend. She said, "I wish you could go out and meet people." I said, "Oh, don't worry about me. Just because I'm in this chair now doesn't mean I don't have plans later." Do I really have to GAL every minute she's around me not to elicit a pity party?
Actually, I thought tonight was going to be a bust. But I had a great conversation over a few beers with someone who had incredible insight about my W, based on her own experience with a breakup - and, having met us not too long ago, even after the BD, said, "I can tell she loves you still." Was kind of nice to hear...
Wound up staying out later than my W, which I wasn't expecting. So that was good GAL stuff! I opened the door to the guest bedroom where she was in bed and falling asleep. She woke startled and said, "I love you." Weird. I wanted to go over and kiss her, of course. But I just closed the door.
BTW, I noticed today that she wasn't wearing the cross and holy medals she usually wears around her neck. I mentioned it, and since she has not much to lose at this point, she readily confessed she'd left them at the OW's house. Of course she took them off to do the unholy things she did. A smidgen of conscience?
Anyway, in bed now. I confess to reading text messages on her phone that was charging downstairs. I know I shouldn't. But this woman is such a predator, feeding my W every opinion she has right now. Like my son says, my WW doesn't have her own mind. And it's too bad. It's a beautiful mind, when she's right in it.
Hoping and praying for a good night's sleep, for once.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19