V, I just got caught up. I am visualizing you as a phoenix rising from the ashes. I can't imagine how hard and heavy it is, but I know you will get off the ground. Although you must care for yourself, surf on the stress. It is what it is there for! You will be able to collapse and take a week in a friend's arms when the job is done, the body will let you at that point.
I am heartened to hear a complete lack of self pity, and practicality and strength - though you would have every right to it, and I know you must be hurting and terribly upset. I wish there was something tangible I could do for you. I used to run payrolls before my last career change.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
