DifRent's Journey - 27 days in, thread 2

[DifRent]

I met with a friend for drinks the other night, and she has a bomb drop story similar to mine. (Wish she lived closer, she was just passing through town.) She said something that resonated with me... she felt like she had "lost herself" in the relationship with her partner. And in a lot of ways, I've done the same. Lost my passion for a career or pursuits independent of her business and time. We have literally spent the last nine months together 24/7, and it's all been about work. We lost our relationship, we lost each other, we lost ourselves.

I know I need to get back to who I am, what I love, what makes me tick. Not even sure what those things are right now, though. At the moment, I feel like an empty shell - I didn't before the bomb drop, but looking back now, I see I gave up way too much just so we could build this business and live the life we wanted to live AFTER it was strong. Foolishness...

She said this morning that we are going to have to figure out how to amicably live together for as long as we live together. I also don't want to be cold or rude - detached, yes. And cordial. But yeah... when she came outside and sat down beside me the morning after sex with her lover, I probably should have just gone back in the house.

I officially don't have any plans till this evening. She left for her open house and said she'd be home around 2pm and was leaving for her BBQ at 5pm... if I wanted to "talk or anything." I need to step up the GAL!