Thanks guys. If we were living apart, it would be easier. But for now, it's very challenging. I am sitting on the front porch and she just came out with her coffee whistling and on her dopamine high, saying good morning, asking me what I did last night. It's really, really hard to stomach this... we've had so many cups of coffee out here over the years, and not once did she have to ask me what I had done the night before.
I'll get through this. It's just so hard, and I'm having a really hard time even imagining reconciliation at this point. (I know I'm preaching to the choir...)
Preach on! Just remember that you don't have to picture it right now. She doesn't want to R right now, so there's nothing to picture. In either case, whether you at or not, the steps are the same. Set your boundaries to protect yourself then carry on with what you know you need to do. You can do it!
