Mighty, you say you still come here like its a bad thing. We are like family here...pushing when needed, holding hands when that is needed, too.
You know, I have told you from early on that you are so hard on yourself. This is a life altering thing. The things we believed in, the family we cherished, the person we thought we could count on...changes seemingly overnight.
That causes us to lose our footing....where all we could do at first is try to hold on.
Takes time to find our balance. It takes a long time, M. We have to go through the stages of grief. We have to figure out who we are now that we arent part of a marriage.
The truth is, that if all of that is done too quickly, we dont learn what we need to learn.
So, my friend, you are starting to grow you back. You are seeing what you are made of. You are coming to terms with all the craziness that has transpired.
You know when you were a kid and you wanted to jump over a big puddle? You backed way up in order to get a running start.
Thats what you are doing, M. I can feel it.
Dont rush the process, though. Allow it to unfold as it should.
And dont forget, along the way, to see how much you've grown.
Mighty, I know this is devastating to you. You arent going to get over it quickly. There will continue to be fits and starts.
But I will tell you this from where I sit...you are an amazing woman, full of life and love and heart. If you werent, this wouldnt have touched you as profoudly as it did.
I know its hard to see life as it is now. It wont always be..I promise you that.
It will get easier to see him. Your children will be ok. And you will one day have the life you deserve. Hold onto that, my friend.
