Didn't sleep much. This is definitely a roller coaster ride isn't it? Trying to breathe and clear the thoughts from my mind. The anger is something I've never really felt before. The hurt just hurts.
This is all starting to affect my mental health. Went to Home Depot yesterday to get three things...when I got there, I couldn't remember two of them. Walked around until I remembered one, but the last item I never got, and didn't remember until I got home.
when I'm driving, roads that I've traveled for years seem new to me. I feel like I'm missing turns, or am farther along the road than I actually am.
I know this is all because I'm distracted, but it's scary.
W came home about 730 last night from "working late". Who knows if it's true or not. I don't challenge it or even acknowledge it anymore.
Appointment with attorney on Tuesday. Just getting my options and rights in line. Who knows if I'll have the courage to file...or maybe it's the courage to NOT file. Either way, this [censored].
