Hi all Thanks for asking about me accross the different threads. I could have posted most days but to be honest nothing has changed Kids doing ok , lots of exams at the moment so not much going out. S20 started work with my company this week so it's nice to spend time with him He's exhausted because he's working in the warehouse picking and packing orders and sleeps the whole drive home !!!
D14 at a concert tonight and due home soon.
Im finding life a little easier now I let go of reconciliation with EXW. She still seems very upset and we have had a few incidents recently which could be viewed as positive but I view them as temp testing. ExW told D14 that she wants to come home but doesn't know how !!! ExW has also been texting abit more but then we have had a few disagreements in which exW has told me she won't be able to come to house once I find someone new I have just validated and said I jnderstand She normally gets anger when I respond like this Washing machine broke down and I ordered a new one and EXW had a bit of a moan that I should have got it fixed and she could have helped with washing untilit was fixed I declined and said it was my problem and I would resolve it.
EXW then told me she was telling a coworker how her H ( me , I think !! ) was looking for a new puppy. EXW then went on to say she still saw me as her business and hoped I still thought of her as my business. I just validated that we were linked through kids and 24 years is hard to just dismiss, EXW then hugged me a have me a kiss ( third this week ). We have ahead ages other hugs but at this stage I see them for what they are. Meaningless EXW has been having a really bad time at work and has called me a few times to chat about it. I have listened and giving EXW comfort. I find this easier now I know there is no way back
a friend of EXW called me the other day and said she had met with EXW and couldn't believe how terrible EXW looked. Friend said she just listened to EXW as EXW d her she was at Rock bottom and couldn't see anyway to sort out her life. Friend told me that EXW doesn't have OM and he is just someone she hangs out with and friend believes her Friend is a decent person who has had problems in her own M that she and H ( my friend ) have worked through. Her H is a really good guy but very old fashioned and stuck in his ways.
I feel along the same lines as Pink and don't think I want another R because I would trust anyone the way I would want to Life does change so we will see
Obviously the last paragraph does not apply to Pink , Toots or Vanillia ( wink Wink )
Thanks again for asking about me. Take care all. Rd
