I'm fighting myself so much right now. I want to move on, find someone else that is happy, and not in pain, and not depressed like the W. I just don't know if what's holding me onto the string is her or my girls. I don't want the girls to go through this, but I also don't want to be miserable. Who knows if she will ever be able to face her own problems, and what she did in the M. If she doesn't it will never work anyway. Im tired of walking around scared of her, afraid I'm going to screw up. Even after she told me she just wants out, and all the other empty words. We are not supposed to believe what they say, but it's hard sometimes when it seems like the right thing to say at the time.
