Hi Sweetie, I'm sorry you're down. It sounds like that convo with H really got to you. But know this - he may say what he says with coldness & conviction like there's no hope. But as everyone says - I don't see any fat ladies singing. Fact is - you get to decide if and when to give up. M version 1 is clearly over - for pretty much all of us. Is Mv2 possible? Who knows. But I can tell you with almost certainty - your H remains unsure - even if he sometimes says otherwise.

But enough about him! Thanks for sharing your story. Wow, I can imagine a movie being made about your life - which is much more than I could say about mine! It sounds like a good plan for your eldest to meet his Dad & I hope it all goes well.

Pink, as RD says, there are so many good things in your life. I have to remind myself that H isn't the centre of my world any more - I am!! So - I'm looking forward to some pink centric attitude from here onwards. We'll be with you each step of the way Dearest.

Take care (((((pink)))))

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus