Another boring day at work. I am getting so much better at fighting the urge to try and contact her. The thoughts are still there, and the urge is very difficult. However, I know nothing helps right now, and I just keep telling myself, it doesn't matter what you do, she has her own plan. I really feel good about this, not that I think it will work and we will R the M, but that maybe I can control myself and not have to keep fighting within my own body. I just have to keep up with my thoughts, and not let the anxiety overcome me.
