I know exactly what you mean and no I didnt think you'd be looking for a new R anytime soon, just that one day you may do. Ultimately V should stand for herself and is fighting hard to do so, what happens next happens next and if anyone can shape chaos into a plan and then to contentment I have no doubt it's Vanilla.
Please take care and when you can get a furry friend, a BFT,WFT,OFT (Orange Furry Thing), Waggy or other then get boogying again and enjoying life as you want it
Lots of warm, positive vibes from all of us Lady V.
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015