Hang in there dear. I know it is easy for us to say that you need to think about yourself first. But, the kind of problems you have are not easy fixed and need immediate attention or it can and will get worse.
So just hang in there, ask for help if you can. There are always people that will stay away to respect your space right now, but they would love to help you. You just need to ask.
Right now, you need to use people's hands and ears, you need to relay on others in order to get through this time.
Soon, things will fall into place and V will have a nice life with some reason to laugh again.
You are in my prayers, may the Lord help you do not feel so sleepy, so tired, so regretful, so angry, so hurt.
