hold on! - 10

[u-turn]

Thanks Vanilla - it feels good to hear you say that, but I still feel wobbly walking in that direction. I know it is going to be ok, but still not what I have wanted. But it is the only way I think I can find solace. This R and M is non-existent and unrecognizable at this point anyway.

Thanks for the comforting and building words V - you truly are a great person. I wish I had the wisdom to help others as you have helped me. I read your story and feel so bad that I don't know what to say to you. You are so strong!!!!

Thank you Jelly - I hope you are feeling better. I am a little fearful of telling the kids about what's coming - but we will all persevere.

I spent the day doing some small maintenance projects at home - alone time (not really good). Took inventory around the house of things that need to be done for sale (yikes).

Have appointment set with lawyer for next week. I don't have anyone to get recommendations from, so I just kind of picked one to meet and get some info (it's another starting point though). W has not come through with the family therapist yet (no surprise)