I think it is because I am giving up on the H issue. It was not easy to hear H saying that he does not see himself married to me anymore. So be it. Wants to be away from me, so be it. Wants to D, so be it. I can't force him to do anything and I won't.
I just want him to go now. Leave me alone so I can deal with my life and my future. You guys are all right, for my own sanity, I need to take him out of my head, my heart and my life.
I know it is not very easy, but I will partner with time and get the job done. He humiliated too much already.
Today, as life is very, very unpredictable, I was in my way to buy a sandwich that S15 asked me for lunch. There was a huge accident and traffic to the restaurant was blocked.
I decided to get another one. I just don't go there much on lunch time because it is always super busy. I purchased the sub and as I turn there was H. He smiled, said hi, kissed me on a cheek. He was going to start a conversation and I said I was going to wait for the sub I got for S15.
I moved away and then he came closer, started saying that he will be traveling next week and he wants me to know that in case I need something.
WHAT???? He does not help me a bit while he is here. Helllllooooo! Wake up H, you do not matter much and I do not need you. Why you saying this foolishness?
But, I said nothing. I just nod my head, looked at him and said, OK, thanks.
I did not talk, just listened. When my sub was ready, I picked it up and said Tchau, see you later and left.
And thanks RD. Thanks for not judging me. When I write how things happen, you will understand a little more that this is not a Hollywood movie, it was just a set of events.
