Today she insisted contact about schedule. She has to do it because of her work and school stuff. So we share days, split right down the middle numbers wise. She realizes she's not going to get to see them as much though, late nights for her, sends me a sad face, I don't send anything back. Then says that she won't be able to take them to Oklahoma, her dad and step moms lake house, says it will kill our d5, I simply say you will have to talk to her. She asked my opinion on schedule I said it looks good. That's it nothing about us, nothing about coming back, and I just say it's starting to feel right. Not giving in, and just resizing that I can't do a damn thing.
Last night she texted about something as well. I just texted back short responses. Her Gma has cancer though, and is having surgery next Friday. She just lost her gpa over Xmas, so I felt bad. Told I would be thinking about her Gma, and hope it goes well. But that's it. I don't think that was too bad. Even though I want nothing more than to be there for her, I know I can't. And I know it's useless. When we got back together for a bit I found that trying to just be nice was working, but then it all fell apart once together. I don't think it will come back, and that's okay. I just want to live happy, and I'm getting slowly.
