Just Fishin'

[mahhhty]

Had a great weekend! Paddled about 40 miles in 4 days on 4 different rivers. All and all it was very fun. I did this with 7 guys I didn't know 6 months ago. So I am definitely putting myself out there in the paddling realm. I was exhausted, but managed a small workout last night (while drinking a beer). Not my most effective workout. I need to detox a little in the upcoming week.

It was fantastic to see the kids yesterday. I truly missed them very very much!

The X & kids had a great time down south. The X sent me a video of my S & D flying on the plane, which was nice. She then called me when they landed, so I could talk to them, also nice. While they were on vacation I didn't call them at all. I didn't want to be a part of their vacation. A couple days into the vacation, my X sent me a picture of my S with camo shorts, black sandals, white thermal, and a baseball hat (that is my go to outfit). She captioned it with "I told S he looks just like Daddy." Also nice.

Mon & Tues I had meetings up north for the startup, both of which went well.

Today I noticed that the X figured out I unfollowed her on instagram, and she did the same. I also noticed that she is going through old pictures on FB and de-tagging or deleting them. Both of which are bummers, but foreseeable.

There is a piece of me who wants to ask her... "Are you happy?" Or ask her Dad or Sister... "Do you think she is happy?" or "Do you think her and I are possible?"

Obviously, this is old brain thinking. It would get back to her. And is just my own insecurities that want validation for my ideas of hope.

In the words of Squiggy, I have to keep on trucking.