Discussion: Forgiveness

[mahhhty]

lnlyshp -
It took me a long time to get over the idea "that I did this to us." I accepted blame for everything, and unfortunately admitted or accepted guilt for everything. So then I blamed myself for pushing her away and then not following DB principles in moments of weakness. But I did forgive myself. That is life. Experience is always the best teacher, and as long as I learn from the past I am becoming a better person, no matter what the consequences (loosing her love) may be.

As for her, I am still upset with her that I am alone in the house we built, living 1/2 of a life we were supposed to live. However, serenity must guide me and identify that I can't control her or her actions. I must accept it, to move forward. Accept and not blame her.

PS I'm glad you are back.