Well, that didn't work out so well. My H had an allergic reaction to the penicillin and was rushed to the hospital by ambulance. I made it there shortly after...at 5:30 am. Spent 5 hours there with him getting pumped full of fluids, antihistamines and antibiotics. He was pretty groggy and delirious for most of the day. Took him to his house and tucked him in. Made sure all his medications were in order. Got home around 10 pm and was just exhausted.
Not sure what is the matter with me today. Pretty much spent the last 4 days straight with my H, yet I feel empty. I did what every loving wife would do, I took care of my husband in his time of need. Yet He did not do the same for me. He knows that he should have and he knows he has to go and figure out why he could not be there for me. I don't know If he will ever make it up to me.
He is never coming home and things will never be the same. He is moving away and the only way I will be with him again is if I sell my house, leave my job, move my kids out and get rid of most of my animals and then move to be here with him. Does that seem a bit one sided? It sure feels that way today. I think next week I will talk to my counsellor about it and also bring it up in MC.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
