Well we had NC so that was good but I'm still crying when I get home. I guess it's normal. Everyone is in my ear to go talk to a L. I know they are afraid for me but I just can't do it right now.
It doesn't hurt to have an initial consultation so that you can understand your rights as a parent - understanding the custodial and financial ramifications of a divorce can make it less scary since its not so unknown.
But from what I understand, you don't gain anything by winning a race to file. You don't WANT it to come to divorce, right? So I wouldn't go hiring someone to start drafting stuff up.
As for the crying and such, this is an emotional time. It's ok to feel the things that come. There's an extreme sense of loss. Of course you're going to feel sad! The key is learning to deal with your thoughts and start to be able to turn them down so that they are shorter and/or less intense. That comes with time as well as mental focus. That also comes with losing the fear.
Have a good night and an even better day tomorrow.
